feels like nothing with sore boobs! day 38...

so no cramps at all this AM, still very sore breasts..... going to test my last test tomorrow, July 1st, if no AF today I will have officially skipped June!

what if i didn't even ovulate? If i didn't ovulate? then there would be no period, right? ugh...

today had the typical waves of cramps, but today the waves were less often but crampy and painful, then went away, only a few today. Also I had to pee quite a few times still today and noticed a big blue vein across my breast that I never noticed before and it FEELS like my boobs are getting bigger....is that possible this early? probably not....Testing for the last time tomorrow- if another BFN and no AF tomorrow, gonna call the gyno as something may be wrong :(

ok what the heck?! 37 days.....

So....what the heck? Waves of cramps and VERY sore breasts.....AF?? WHERE ARE YOU?? This little mind game of your is not very nice! I am sore from playing frolf on saturday and softball on sunday and to top it off the waves of cramps and sore breasts have got to stop (if you are coming) if you aren't then a BFP would be nice! WAITING to test again (#4) until I have officially MISSED my period (AKA the longest time frame in my menstrual history---39 days!!) Because I no longer think I'm pregnant, and losing hope and more hope goes with every negative! SO this really must be a late period....ugh! I can't wait to get a jump start on July, but if I am getting my period IN JULY it doesn't do me any good.

I NEED AF OR A BFP....JUST GIVE ME ONE SO I CAN COPE/REJOICE!!

36 days and counting from last AF....

So today I woke up feeling VERY sore and heavy breasts. They hurt just when I was walking to the bathroom. I was crampy today but in the same wave-like pattern of as soon as they would come they were gone. Odd? Played a game of frolf yesterday and softball today and active sports DEFINITELY bring out AF for me....and it felt like I was going to get it.....but when I went to the bathroom NOTHING, just a little clear discharge (sorry TMI)! Currently no cramps (but I'm sure if a wait awhile a wave may come?) DEFINITE sore breasts, and slightly nauseous! I am definitely moody too (which is how I get sometimes around getting my period (sometimes) where i feel fat and get a little down in the dumps about my weight, etc (usually from being bloated), but it doesn't happen often.

It is just irritating how most pregnancy symptoms mock period symptoms just with no AF!

Also I was definitely thinking (if AF doesn't show her ugly head) that I could have misjudged ovulation and not be as far along as I thought? I had EWCM on 6/10 and that is when we did it, but maybe I O'd later on by a few days, or later by like a week? we did it again on 6/17? If that were it (or around then) I would be about 11-13dpo ish? I have no idea....it has been 36 days since AF and my longest ever was 38/39 but that was only once each.....so alas, we shall see!

If nothing this week, will test again to be sure?

If this one doesn't work then we will try harder next month and we are going out to get a BBT thermometer to track temps (again-this time with the right thermometer) and see just how long my luteal phase is, al least that will give me some sort of clue......

Day 35

Feeling LOST!

so this is the third latest my period has ever been! Latest 39, then 38, then 35..... Yesterday had period like cramps (painful ripping/tearing?) but now, only a tiny bit crampy after I pee sometimes. Breasts very tender! still waiting.... the 3 past neg. tests are causing me lose to hope and feel LOST.

JUST COME ALREADY!! >:O Seriously! If you are going to come....COME! I cannot take this inconsistency! I think I am going to start BBT again just so I can learn my luteal phase! Then I can know for sure!

I am slowly becoming okay with not being and I am trying to cope...I know we can try again next month...BUT I JUST WANT AN ANSWER EITHER WAY!

i can't do this every month----God please help it to be Your time...... but maybe soon? O:)

Daily breakdown:

0-3dpo: excitement, tried to relax, not possible

4-6dpo: a bit nauseous

7-8dpo: waves of cramping (7th day strongest)

9dpo: nothing yet this am, no cramps, nips a little tender...

10dpo: acne! hungry 45 min after eating, have to pee way more than normal

11dpo: TEST #1----BFN with FRRR(bought wrong test, its too early), weird waves of crampiness, they come after I pee or exercise and only last 10 minutes or so, very mild,

12dpo: hungry after I eat, gassy! and have to pee every 5 seconds like 50 times today! (could be the gas bubbles pressing on my bladder)

13dpo: TEST #2----BFN with EPT, no cramps....nothing

14dpo: feel nothing, no cramps, no AF (32 days since last AF, averagerange of AF 30-35 days)

15dpo: slightly dizzy, cramps in waves, felt hot....no AF

16dpo: TEST #3---BFN, losing hope, rare waves of crampiness, AF coming?

17dpo: Breasts VERY sore to the touch, AF like cramps---no AF (reached 35 days since last AF, average range 30-35, only twice ever have I had a period longer than 35 days-one was 39 the other 38)

UGH....it would show up by now wouldn't it? Hubby is being so sweet trying to say we will try harder next month.....I love him....

well here there are!

ok so now, still no AF BUT i am having AF like cramps and my boobs are sore....

so maybe auntie will show her ugly face after all?? that evil evil woman!

Losing hope....

Tested again this AM, no AF STILL BFN!!!!...... trying not to let to BFNs get me down.....but I am beginning to lose hope!

First test was FRRR(bought wrong test wanted FRER) (neg)

Second and Third were EPT....(neg)

days since last AF: 34

ave. range of getting AF: 30-35

should I try FRER???? OR JUST GIVE UP :( and start prepping myself to try again next month??? It SHOULD be positive by now

could be stress from trying and thinking about it that is making me late, once I get my mind to know it will probably come...HOW AM I NOT SUPPOSED TO THINK ABOUT IT??? That isn't going to happen let me tell you!

Day 33

So 15dpBabyDance, I think 14-15dpo? Took tests June 21 (was neg and too early) and June 23rd (also neg) but still no AF.....

last few days and this AM still NOTHING! no cramps and no AF

This morning felt hot and a lil dizzy, this afternoon, slightly crampy, in waves, but alas no AF!

days since last AF: 33

ave. range of getting AF: 30-34

Testing again Saturday 27th (it will have been 35 since last AF) if no AF...... trying not to let to BFNs get me down.....

My cycles this year!

June 21, 2008-->

July 23, 2008 (32)-->

August 23, 2009 (31)-->

September 24, 2008 (32)-->

November 2, 2008 (39)-->

December 7, 2008 (35)-->

January 7, 2009 (31)-->

February 14th, 2009 (38)-->

March 19, 2009 (33)-->

April 23, 2009 (35)-->

May 23, 2009 (30)-->

WAITING...... for ....... June

still....

NOTHING!

no cramps

no AF

days since last AF: 32

ave. range of getting AF: 30-34

BFN yet again!

Well BFN again! So that's it for me testing! Going to wait for AF and see.... if its not here this weekend, I dunno.....

I guess that's it until July, gonna try a lil harder (every other day?)

Until anymore news....

30 days...12dpBD/11dpo?

So today....no cramps at all.....

we decided to wait and test tomorrow....

AF time frame.....June 22-26 (today is the 22nd)

TESTING TOMORROW!!

EVERY 5 seconds!!!

it is like every five seconds I have to pee!!!! I literally have gone like 50 times today!

and I am hungry right after I eat!

(not to mention uncomfortably gassy--sorry TMI)

I hope this is a baby rather than just a dysfunctional me!

super weird waves of crampiness....

ok these cramps are weird...they only come after exercise or a lot of movement (running jumping) or after I pee? Just crampy, a wave of them like 10 minutes or so and then GONE!

Is that common or just super weird ?

The world of HcG---ANSWERS!

WHAT TESTS ARE BEST? What are the levels of HcG in each specific test? How much HcG do we produce and at how many dpo? I went searching for answers....hopefully these help us all!!

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Pregnancy Tests and hCG Values

The pregnancy tests on the market today range widely in their sensitivity in picking up the pregnancy hormone, hCG. In the chart below, the lower the number in the "hCG Detected" column, the earlier you can use the pregnancy tests. As a general rule, hCG levels, if you are pregnant, are between 5 - 50 mIU a week before your period is due. The hCG levels in your system should double every two to three days.

Please remember that every woman is different and the time it takes for the fertilized egg to implant in your uterus wall can vary. A common misconception is that implantion occurs 7 days after conception, but the research findings showed that first appearance of HCG (implantation) occurred 6-12 days after ovulation, with 84% of the pregnancies implanting on days 8-10 after ovulation. If you don't get a positive pregnancy test, it doesn't necessarily mean that you are not pregnant. It could be that you ovulated later than you thought (meaning that conception and subsequent hCG production didn't happen as when you expected) or that, for you, implantation took longer than the average. Your period arriving is a sign that you are not pregnant this cycle, as is a negative blood test from your doctor.

Is a super sensitive pregnancy test the best to use?

For most women, the resounding answer would be YES! It allows you to know earlier if your attempts to conceive were sucessful and get medical care as soon as possible. There *is* a down side to extra sensitive pregnancy tests though. 25% of all pregnancies unfortunately end in miscarriage and many of these being very early pregnancies. If you use a very sensitive pregnancy test, where you test before the day your period is due, you could catch an early pregnancy but end up going on to have your period anyway due to a very early miscarriage. Some women will find it very hard to deal with this sort of emotional rollercoaster.

Levels of HcG during stages past ovulation... (babyhopes.com)

10 DPO:	10 - 50 mIU/ml HcG
13 DPO:	20 - 100 mIU/ml HcG
16 DPO:	40 - 200 mIU/ml HcG
19 DPO:	80 - 400 mIU/ml HcG
22 DPO:	160 - 800 mIU/ml HcG

Levels of HcG in specific tests.....

Pregnancy Test Sensitivity Chart

Sensitivities checked with manufacturers in July 2007

Test Name Lowest hCG detected AimStrip (aka AimStick) Pregnancy Test Strip 20 mIU BabyHopes Generic Pregnancy Test Strip 20 mIU AccuHome Midstream Pregnancy Test 25 mIU Accuclear Pregnancy Test 25 mIU Answer Early Result Pregnancy Test 25 mIU Clearblue Easy 25 mIU Clearblue Easy Digital (1 piece, blue cap) 25 mIU Clear Choice w/ Cup 25 mIU Confirm 1-Step Pregnancy Test 25 mIU CVS Early Result Pregnancy Test 25 mIU Dollar Store Brand (mini-strip, cassette, & midstream) 25 mIU Early Detect 25 mIU e.p.t. Test 25 mIU e.p.t. 1-Step Digital Test 25 mIU e.p.t. Certainty Digital Test 25 mIU Equate (Wal-mart) 25 mIU Equate Pregnancy Test (Wal-mart) 25 mIU Fact Plus Midstream Pregnancy Test 25 mIU First Response Early Result Pregnancy Test 25 mIU One Step Be Sure Pregnancy Test 25 mIU Right Aid Pregnancy Test 25 mIU Target Brand Pregnancy Test 25 mIU Walgreen Midstream Pregnancy Test 25 mIU Walgreen Digital 25 mIU Fact Plus Cassette 40 mIU Clearblue Digital 50 mIU CVS "Early Result" Cassette Pregnancy Test 50 mIU Drug Emporium Brand Pregnancy Test 50 mIU early Pregnancy test 50 mIU Walgreens Cassette Pregnancy Test 50 mIU

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I hope this helps you all as much as it helped me....I used the First Response Rapid Results (bought it by accident) and got a BFN due to higher level detections of HcG, so I went out and got EPT and you can test 4 days before missed period and it detects levels of 25mIU which I should have within the next few days if I don't already. It depends upon when ovulation occurred and when you actually conceived! It is all starting to make sense!

I am 11 days past when we tried and according to monitoring my cm about maybe 10dpo? So I should be between 10-50 mIU? Going to try EPT tomorrow!!

Test #1

Well as predicted test #1 was a - ! It is not one you can test early with and I will never get that kind again....so the verdict is still out on whether or not there will be another member of of our little family, someone to fill our house.

We are going to get some more and maybe try again tomorrow or in a couple days. For now, it is father's day, our anniversary, and our kitties' 3rd birthday and our staycation!

New bummer....

I just checked my stash of pregnancy tests and realized I have the one that is the "rapid results FR" of 1-minute but it has to be the day of your missed period... so much for testing early... gonna try anyway but now with the knowledge that it is going to be a - for sure...

Going to buy more tomorrow...the "early results FR" I want it early, i don't care how long it takes! :(

Until tomorrow....

Weird stuff this evening I am noticing....

So I eat and then am hungry like 45 minutes later?

Have to pee alot!

Acne?

We shall see tomorrow...........

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Good morning...

Well it is Saturday, the day before our anniversary; the day before father's day; the day before testing! No cramps this am either... starting to wonder if that a bad thing? If feeling cramps is so common (which I was feeling before) is a good thing, but now for the past two days (yesterday and today) they have stopped? Well tomorrow we want to test because if there is any day that would be great to get that news it would be on our anniversary and father's day---Brian's first father's day! Well, until tomorrow.... hopefully with good news (if it will detect it a tad bit early)!

10 dp"d"/9dpo(?)

AF due: b/w June 22-25

Testing: TOMORROW!

It's FRIDAY!

So woke up this am wondering about you...are you in there? I'm not feeling any cramps this morning and cannot wait to get an answer-I just want a yes or a no. If no I can work on coping and trying to meet you again next month...if yes I can start planning and the endless amounts of joy I will feel to care for you until the day I meet you for the first time!

Daily breakdown:

0-3dpo: excitement, tried to relax, not possible

4-6dpo: a bit nauseous

7-8dpo: waves of cramping (7th day strongest)

9dpo: nothing yet this am, no cramps, breasts a little tender...

It's a brand new day....

Today ....8 days after the "dance" maybe 10dpo.... feeling crampy but have read several place that it could be either! Just because I am feeling crampy doesn't mean the period is eminent---could you be in there? My little turtle, my sweet little love? I hope so.....

Period due date countdown: 4-7 days (due June 22-25)

Test date countdown: 3 days (June 21st-our anniversary and father' day, how great would that be to get a positive---Brian's first father's day! I think I'd cry)

Is it all in my head?!

there is no way i am getting these symptoms this early! Just getting crampy, nauseous, and having to pee a lot--- gonna get my period probably---I knew this wasn't going to be easy. When you want something so badly it is IMPOSSIBLE not to stress about it!

I am SOOOO tired lately, unexplained tired---i am wondering why? Could it be? I wake up in the AM after a long and pretty good night sleep exhausted and when I get home from a full day of work and much more tired that I usually am and just want to take a nap!

I am super crampy though :( It makes me nervous that this is all in my head. My hubby today, it was so sweet, wanted to know when we could test and said he is really excited! I want to know so bad!

period due June 22-25 (30-34 day cycles), 7dpo

2WW

sitting at the 2WW misery.... I am not charting or tracking (I did that, didn't show peak?) and am hoping that just doing the natural method of reading my body CM will work. My cycles are b/w 30-34 days on average (last period 5/23) and we tried on the 10th... according to EWCM, might have O'd on the 11th? or 12th? as the CM was dry? Sorry about the TMI, but this is our first month trying and I don't know much about timing-we shall see how it goes!!

maybe 5-6dpo and been feeling super nauseous lately, very tired, sensitive to smells, head aches, slightly cramping---wayyyyy to early to feeling anything, so probably all psychological!

I can't stand waiting!

Pretending...

So, here I sit, without child in my life or in my belly... and I pretend...

I live vicariously through all of you. I dream of a child, being pregnant, or simply just nursing my baby to sleep at night.

I submit comments and advice about things I have yet to experience, going to work each day simply to hear "you don't know what its like you don't have any children"

I got my promise for July and I can only sit here and dream, waiting, and wishing that our little one will make their debut quickly into our lives with zest and as little futility as possible.

Alas here I sit here, making secret baby registry, reading up on everything -cloth diapering - breast feeding - natural childbirth, naming my unborn child, standing in the mirror puffing out my stomach, closing my eyes, and wishing... with a tear in my eye I can only hope........someday.....

so check out the names of a child I hope to have someday, a child to bless my life with their every need, desire, cry, smiles, and laugh...