Pretending...

So, here I sit, without child in my life or in my belly... and I pretend...

I live vicariously through all of you. I dream of a child, being pregnant, or simply just nursing my baby to sleep at night.

I submit comments and advice about things I have yet to experience, going to work each day simply to hear "you don't know what its like you don't have any children"

I got my promise for July and I can only sit here and dream, waiting, and wishing that our little one will make their debut quickly into our lives with zest and as little futility as possible.

Alas here I sit here, making secret baby registry, reading up on everything -cloth diapering - breast feeding - natural childbirth, naming my unborn child, standing in the mirror puffing out my stomach, closing my eyes, and wishing... with a tear in my eye I can only hope........someday.....

so check out the names of a child I hope to have someday, a child to bless my life with their every need, desire, cry, smiles, and laugh...